Should I really be making art? Am I good enough to write? Is it fair for me to take time away from my family to pursue an activity which may never be a financial success? Do I even possess any talent? I am humbled by this kind of honesty and trust.
And I get it. Right in the gut. The overwhelming desire to do something they love. To make something beautiful. The need to be reassured and strengthened by another human being.
Maybe it's the fact we're not face-to-face. Maybe these people are just extraordinarily brave. Either way, it takes a whole truck load of courage to admit that we care, because if we fail, and we almost certainly will, it makes us vulnerable.
The reason that these e-mails affect me so deeply is that I understand. Oh, do I understand. I feel these things, too. On a daily basis, I second-guess myself. I feel insecure. I struggle with finding time to create. I feel like a fraud.
I know without a doubt that I technically have very little artistic talent. I can hear you over there spluttering and rushing to reassure me that I do, but I'm adamant about this. I possess little, if any technical artistic talent.
I do have something else though, and it's a real doozy. I'm stubborn and enthusiastic. When I'm involved in a project or a task, I don't mess around. I roll up my sleeves and get busy with it and it's working for me. Personally and professionally, there is something to be said for hard work and good old fashioned optimism.
I have learned this truth. You should put yourself out there. Yes, you should. Yes, it is worth it. It doesn't matter what the outcome, even if you never sell a single painting. Yes, yes, yes. I urge you to do it. Of course it's safer on the sidelines, but if you desire to grow and move forward, you're going to need to dive in. Don't pussyfoot around about it either. If you're going to dive, dive deep. Give it all you've got.
Is it possible to use the word 'yes' too much? I don't think so. It reminds me of this poem by Kaylin Haught, which is a favorite, so forgive me if I've posted it before.
God Says Yes To Me
I asked God if it was okay to be melodramatic
and she said yes
I asked her if it was okay to be short
and she said it sure is
I asked her if I could wear nail polish
or not wear nail polish
and she said honey
she calls me that sometimes
she said you can do just exactly
what you want to
Thanks God I said
And is it even okay if I don’t paragraph
Sweetcakes God said
who knows where she picked that up
what I’m telling you is
Yes Yes Yes
I love the sculptures and vessels made by Brent Freund. I want to hold each of them in my hands for just a bit, feel the heft and texture. You can visit his website by clicking here or on each of the images.
I sold this painting a couple of days ago and it's on its way to a new home.
I also received an invitation to speak at a meeting of the El Dorado Arts & Crafts Association in March. In his usual bad-ass style, The Don has decided that we should turn it into a getaway weekend, so we'll be having a day or two in Santa Fe. Very exciting!
It's hard to tell from the photos, but he's also been very busy transforming the dining room into a gallery. It looks incredible! I'll post some more pics when it's complete. If you look closely, you can see that there are wires which slide on channels, allowing the art to be moved around and rearranged on a whim. :)
I hope your week is turning out nicely!